John 6:25-35 New International Version (NIV)
Jesus the Bread of Life
25 When they found him on the other side of the lake, they asked him, “Rabbi, when did you get here?”
26 Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, you are looking for me, not because you saw the signs I performed but because you ate the loaves and had your fill. 27 Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. For on him God the Father has placed his seal of approval.”
28 Then they asked him, “What must we do to do the works God requires?”
29 Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.”
30 So they asked him, “What sign then will you give that we may see it and believe you? What will you do? 31 Our ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written: ‘He gave them bread from heaven to eat.’[a]”
32 Jesus said to them, “Very truly I tell you, it is not Moses who has given you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. 33 For the bread of God is the bread that comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.”
34 “Sir,” they said, “always give us this bread.”
35 Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.
I, like most people, only care about now. I tend to overlook what is going on around me and tend to be more worried about what isn’t done, hasn’t been done, or needs to be done. I many times forget what I am blessed with and have been blessed with and become obsessed with what I need, or don’t have now. I can relate to these people. They are hungry now. They need more miracles now. I need…
I want to be fixed now. I want everything done now. Why does this always happen to me? Why can’t I be done? Why am I always working and trying to get better?
God sees me/us as we are and loves me/us as I am. Why do I think that I need to fix myself? Why do I ask the wrong questions, or worry about the wrong things?
Wait well? Are you kidding? Wait and Jerry don’t go in the same sentence. Why wait, I want it now. That has always been my mentality. I am and will continue to try to “fix” that. But Jesus knows me and my OCDness. I need God’s love and help to change this attitude. I am trying to be more patient, more understanding, more loving-but I still have a ways to go. I pray and thank God for being patient with me while I continue to grow. I thank God daily for “loving me too much to leave me the way that I am.”
I used to worry about my business and the peaks and valleys. I still do worry, but I am not as obsessed with it. I know God promises to provide “my daily bread.” I thank Him every day for providing my daily bread for these last 63 years. I ask that He continue to provide my daily bread. It is in His hands and He has always been faithful. My job is to also be faithful, loving and believing that He will provide for me. He after all declares “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.” That is His promise to me and each and every one of us.
Lord, please forgive me for my humanness. Please forgive me and help me with my OCDness. Please help me not to worry about the now and look forward to eternity with You. Thank You for providing my daily bread and please continue to provide my daily bread. I yearn for the eternal bread and water that only You can provide. Please help me to remember that You are Lord and I am not. Amen.